1: hmm,what should be the first I should be asking you?..hmmm...can you tell me about yourself?
0: myself, let's see... I am a happy person. I have a family, a complete and supportive family should I say. I finished schooling just this year but currently unemployed. For some reason, I am living life just as it is. I just go with the flow.
1: ok, please continue...
0:
1: uhmm..
0:
1: why do you stop? nevermind. can you just tell me how are you feeling right now, I mean how do you feel talking to me like this?
0: I guess it's fine. I don't know exactly what I feel, it's more like I lose that times ago
yeah. i don't know what it means to feel something. i just lose it or i rather am lost through it. i'm already engulfed with this strange feeling of being alone.
i don't know if that's what you called sorrow... or is it just fear... or wrath.
i'm bored.
0: i'm bored.
1: wait! where are you going?!
0: don't you hear what i say? I'm bored of this. I'm done talking to you.
1: do you think running away could solve everything? have it crossed your mind that you're note the only one getting hurt? have you already given up? do you ever consider what others would feel if they see you getting all miserable by just one failure?
0: how dare you say that? do you know me fully for you to be saying that? what right do you have to question me like that?
why? what do you know?
0: I am a failure. I was born to always lose. I never win nor I don't deserve to win. I don't deserve any good in this world. My family, my friends, anything.... everything... I don't deserv--
1: no you're wrong... why do you say you don't deserve everything that you have?
you know, you are more deserving as i think you are.
0: no i'm not. i'm not good with people. i think more than i feel.
1: but those are not reasons for you to feel bad of yourself.
0: no, i should feel bad. i'm being a burden. instead of being an asset to anyone, i just keep dragging people down. maybe, i don't really have the reason to be happy.
1: but..
0: i didn't fail only once. i failed multiple times.
seeing those faces of disappointment... hearing those words.
they always say it's okay. it's alright. they can accept everything.
no they're not. i can hear them. i can feel it... regret...disappointment...
they feel ashamed of getting their hopes high on me.
i can't anymore. i don't want everybody to put up a face in front of me. i don't need their sympathy. they are all fakes. they say they care! they do not! they don't know! beca--
1: why don't you tell them?
0: i can't. i can't hurt them.
1;
0:
1:
0: why are you still here?
1: don't worry i'm not here to give you sympathy or the like. i don't need to.
0: you know, you are weird.
1: i know. then, what are you going to do now? can you still... live?
0: i can. still. i shall.
1: then, that's good to hear.
0: i don't know your true intentions but, thank you.
1: for what? i think there's no need for you to thank me.
0: i need to.
because if you aren't here then maybe i'm really one with my own pitiful self.
1: well since it became like this, i must thank you too. thanks for giving me all your honest thoughts.
0: welcome.
1: till next time.
yeah...till next time.
0: myself, let's see... I am a happy person. I have a family, a complete and supportive family should I say. I finished schooling just this year but currently unemployed. For some reason, I am living life just as it is. I just go with the flow.
1: ok, please continue...
0:
1: uhmm..
0:
1: why do you stop? nevermind. can you just tell me how are you feeling right now, I mean how do you feel talking to me like this?
0: I guess it's fine. I don't know exactly what I feel, it's more like I lose that times ago
yeah. i don't know what it means to feel something. i just lose it or i rather am lost through it. i'm already engulfed with this strange feeling of being alone.
i don't know if that's what you called sorrow... or is it just fear... or wrath.
i'm bored.
0: i'm bored.
1: wait! where are you going?!
0: don't you hear what i say? I'm bored of this. I'm done talking to you.
1: do you think running away could solve everything? have it crossed your mind that you're note the only one getting hurt? have you already given up? do you ever consider what others would feel if they see you getting all miserable by just one failure?
0: how dare you say that? do you know me fully for you to be saying that? what right do you have to question me like that?
why? what do you know?
0: I am a failure. I was born to always lose. I never win nor I don't deserve to win. I don't deserve any good in this world. My family, my friends, anything.... everything... I don't deserv--
1: no you're wrong... why do you say you don't deserve everything that you have?
you know, you are more deserving as i think you are.
0: no i'm not. i'm not good with people. i think more than i feel.
1: but those are not reasons for you to feel bad of yourself.
0: no, i should feel bad. i'm being a burden. instead of being an asset to anyone, i just keep dragging people down. maybe, i don't really have the reason to be happy.
1: but..
0: i didn't fail only once. i failed multiple times.
seeing those faces of disappointment... hearing those words.
they always say it's okay. it's alright. they can accept everything.
no they're not. i can hear them. i can feel it... regret...disappointment...
they feel ashamed of getting their hopes high on me.
i can't anymore. i don't want everybody to put up a face in front of me. i don't need their sympathy. they are all fakes. they say they care! they do not! they don't know! beca--
1: why don't you tell them?
0: i can't. i can't hurt them.
1;
0:
1:
0: why are you still here?
1: don't worry i'm not here to give you sympathy or the like. i don't need to.
0: you know, you are weird.
1: i know. then, what are you going to do now? can you still... live?
0: i can. still. i shall.
1: then, that's good to hear.
0: i don't know your true intentions but, thank you.
1: for what? i think there's no need for you to thank me.
0: i need to.
because if you aren't here then maybe i'm really one with my own pitiful self.
1: well since it became like this, i must thank you too. thanks for giving me all your honest thoughts.
0: welcome.
1: till next time.
yeah...till next time.
okay?
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